Nawazuddin Siddiqui had suicidal thoughts, fought depression in his struggling days

Sushant Singh Rajput’s untimely death due to depression has opened a lot of discussions on Mental Health and it’s awareness. People are widely discussing this topic with a view-point to extend a helping hand to someone who is suffering from anxiety and depression and tends to get suicidal thoughts. B’town celebs have also shared their stories of fighting with depression and how they successfully came out of the black hole of anxiety.

Nawauddin Siddiqui, in a recent interview, revealed about his struggling days and how he fought with dark thoughts and anxiety. The actor also shared that due to lack of money, he went into the state of depression once, but fortunately came out successfully.

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In an interaction with Hindustan Times about his struggling days, he said, “I have always had mazdoor-like hardworking, fighting spirit. I don’t think that I am bigger than them. I had the same intentions as theirs. I didn’t dream of becoming a star. My only intention was to survive and earn for the next meal. It continued for 10 years. I did odd jobs and walked to my friend’s house for food. There were difficult times but we were happy even then. But ya, I did feel depressed at times because of lack of work. Depression and frustration start when you dream big.”

In the same interview he also talked about the time when suicidal thoughts entered his mind and he succumbed with the thoughts of taking his own life. He said to the same portal, “I used to walk to my friend’s house, without train, for food and walk back on foot. Because I wasn’t eating well so I was getting weak and my hair started falling off. I used to get tired after walking 2 km. I felt as if I am going to die soon. Because of which I used to stay out all day to see the world because I didn’t know how many days will I survive,”

The Sacred Games actor went on to talk about how he felt depressed at the beginning of the Coronavirus induced lockdown but eventually coped up with it. He told the same portal that he used to sit on one side of the corner and whenever he felt upset about his problems, he thought of migrant workers who are covering thousands of miles in scorching heat. He said, “In my office, there was water leakage in the ceiling and I used to collect the water in a bucket and throw that every day. There was no ac.”