Penn Badgley is opening up about a very personal and painful time in his life. He shared that he and his wife, Domino Kirke, went through multiple miscarriages, and the loss affected them so deeply that they even thought about separating. He spoke about this on the Totally Booked podcast and explained that those two back-to-back miscarriages felt overwhelming for both of them. They were scared, exhausted, and unsure of what the future looked like.

Penn talked about how common miscarriages actually are, yet people rarely speak about them openly. He said the pain is real for everyone who goes through it, but many couples don’t feel like they have the space or support to express how hard it is. He said he and Domino felt very alone during that time because the world doesn’t really teach people how to deal with this kind of grief or how to help others who are struggling.

In his book Crushmore, he wrote about how they feared the heartbreak would keep repeating. Each doctor visit and each sonogram brought back memories of the loss, and the emotional weight kept building. He said that the fear and trauma stayed with them for a long time.

But their story didn’t end there. They eventually welcomed a baby boy who is now four years old, and later had twins. Along with Domino’s older son from a previous relationship, they now have a family of four kids. Penn joked that he feels like he is always surrounded by children and that it is funny to compare his life now to the fear he once carried. With so many little ones running around, the memories of loss feel distant, even though they were so heavy at the time.

Penn also explained that the miscarriages affected both of them differently. Domino already had her son, Cassius, but Penn had never had a biological child before. That difference shaped the emotions they each went through and added another layer to how they processed the losses.

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